Sunday, January 9, 2011
From a very long time I was waiting the year 2010 , I don't know why ?
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Saturday, December 11, 2010
I feel jealous when I see everyone has a lucky Number And I don't have my Own ?? ... Believe Me .. Sometimes it helps .. if you play Estimation or any other game and you have no clew what is the number you should play, You'll find yourself choose the number you love, and prays that he loves you back and don't let you down .. In the past I always go with the even numbers , I love the even number , I hated when I was in school and taking a division lesson and I found a stupid odd number cant be divided on two so I have to add a fraction, or when I grow older and in an algebra class and trying to divide both sides on two to find out what is X or Y is and I found another odd Number, ..... yeah of course its not the end of the world I can try to divide on 3 or 5 or what ever But divide on 2 is much easier and more organized .
* this Post was written 6 may 2010 , Edited and Published 11 December 2010 .
* the day I throw away my old Phone Nokia N73 & Exchange it with BB I was thinking About the number (73) I throw away with it, because as you see the 3 and 7 are two special numbers for me as I found out recently , in the same day in my new job I got a temporary trainee access card with the number (37) !! .
Saturday, October 2, 2010
The self discovering is not easy thing to do , not hard as well, not fun neither Boring , not quick , not specific & not a must . its an adventure with the full meaning the word adventure carries , easy times don’t make the adventure easy, fun time don’t make the adventure funny, scary times don’t make it scary , fast don’t make it fast , pointless don’t make pointless & so on, its like a painting full of white black orange green red and blue but we call it the Mona Lisa . you don’t have to take the decision of going for the adventure by yourself , you press the start button automatically - and enter the game - when you found out something you didn’t know before about the person who lives inside you from years, and blessed whom starts earlier .
“Caution : this will be a very long introduction”
In the mid 90s I watched an Egyptian series talks about a journey eight guys making to turn down a fire established in an oil well, and they will turn off the fire by making a bigger fire around it to turn off the source , this is a well known method in the huge fire fighting , they will make the fire with a flammable liquid , this liquid can explode and make a huge fire if you just shake a bottle with this liquid inside , the barrels which was designed like a giant bottles will be carried on a big truck and surrounded by a lot of equipments to reduce the shakes whenever the truck shakes or the driver passed on an un-finished road , there is also a cold water dropper drops over every liquid Barrel to keep it under the temperature line which makes it explode, four trucks will be moving to the mission area with carrying two liquid barrels & two drivers in each truck , and they will swap the driving & the sleeping however, wherever & whenever they want as long as the truck is moving all the time with a maximum speed 40 k/h, no problem to stop for safety purposes , after every driver sign on the mission and takes half the reward he should also sign that his life may ends at any moment and he is responsible on his life not the company, and of course if the job is done the second half of the great reward is waiting and this reward can change each driver life , its like giving him the salary of 10 years in 3 days the time of the trip .
So far everything is great and we get to know every driver personal life in the early episodes and how long he took to take the decision , one of the drivers was married to a woman and she refused the offer and she was always telling him that she cannot accept the deal as long as his life is in danger even if this danger was only one percent , and he was telling her that he will come after 3 days with a huge amount of money which will change their life for ever , but the problem wasn’t in the man’s wife , the problem was in his father in law , his wife’s father was a great man he was the leader of the people in this village , he was known with his wisdom, strength, dignity he was like the Don vito corlione to everyone else in the Godfather movie, but this great man has a story , a little small story but this story makes him discover things about himself he shouldn’t discover , the story that he was walking with his daughter and with another man , and as always he was talking with the man and it seems like he just put a punishment on this man for something bad he did and while he was talking as a leader strongly with a sure voice *Clicnk* …… he stepped over something , and its appears on everyone face that they know what he stepped on , at this area of Egypt the series took place was a place the world war II took place as will , and as we know the war has so many ugly faces but the ugliest ever that if two great countries decided that your country will be the round for their fight , like two gangs knock on your door come in and fought with each other , the victorious ones celebrates and leave and the defeated ones carry their buddies and go out , and you look around to find out how your home will look like aftermath , that’s what was happening , and in Egypt wide areas still full of mines and still explode till today from the WWII , one of those mines which was planted by one of the great nations 50 years ago is now under this poor man’s foot , the great leader who was always known with his strength, wisdom & leadership is now standing on a mine , he start to look to the people around him and then he started to peg the man he was putting punishment on him to do something and save his life , but now he is not talking like the leader everyone knows , now he is almost crying , and asking the man not to leave , to save his life , to deactivate the mine , to do something , the man was crying and crying and if there wasn’t a mine under his foot he would kneel & ask for help, after minutes of thinking , the other man decided to help , he took of his head wear , reshape it , take a look at the mine , the man’s foot , the sand , he told him “ let me control your leg” , he start to dig around the mine , he put the scarf under the mine slowly , he took a rock from the sand , he put his finger on the trigger –once that happened the old man ran and sat on the sand and he putted his hands around his head while he watching what the other man doing -, the other man put the rock as a replacement for his finger on the trigger , he rotates the scarf on the mine and the rock , the man's daughter came to help him to tighten the scarf around the mine and he stepped back , AND BANG ….
To be Continued ..
(02-Dec-10) “What was that ?? ”they are all on the floor asking, and they figured out that it was a cat stepped on another mine 100 meters away. Actually there is no cat no mine and No Bang!!! , I already make up the last few lines and if I was the writer I would add them to spice up the series and to attract the viewer to watch the next episode, now I discovered a new thing about myself, I can be a script writer , So lets get back to our story which ends that way : the old man was saved and the guy who rescued him now helping him to stand up and go home, but since then the great leader didn’t get out of his house, didn’t shave his beard, rarely speak, don’t eat for days, always thinking, miserable, pathetic, not the same in anyway, but he sometimes speak for a long time, speaks philosophy, speaks with words no body easily understands, he didn’t lose his mind he didn’t went crazy or go insane, but he discovered himself , or actually discovered a flaw in himself, he discovered that he is a coward, a chicken , someone who whenever he is frightened he lose his mind, forgot who he is , his age, his prestige, his history, He was a leader of a group of ppl. Who should sacrifice his soul for their safety , don’t cry when he find his soul in danger !!, and that what he actually did, he was unable to face him self , his people & his daughter again, after he cried in front of her begging for his life after years he was a role model and a figure to be followed in bravery, But what is the problem to be frightened, or frightened to death from death, what else should I be afraid of , its normal to fear death and in case you are a believer and you know that you will be standing infront of your creator, judged for your deeds and you are standing on an active mine and eternity burning in hell might be where you going to step on next , Obviously, 100 % , and with no doubt you have to be afraid, its one of your rights and no one can blame you about this, you wasn’t afraid of a bee, a dog or darkness you was afraid of die in a thousand pieces due to a big explosion which is able to disable a tank, die and they cant find something to bury in your grave, but what makes him embarrassed, hidden in his house and in this miserable status , that he thought himself a brave man, a hero & a patriot , he disappointed himself in front of himself, he embarrassed himself in front of himself, and that what really matters !! .
Lets get out of the series for a moment and try what a man like this thinks when he looks in the mirror , " thought you were a brave man" that what he will told the man in the mirror , he will still feel ashamed and embarrassed alone , not because people find out that he is a coward But because he thought that he is a brave man , convinced that he is a brave, feel proud of himself because he like the way he is, and suddenly he find himself someone else, a coward and he didn’t like the person who he is.
So this man was afraid that his son in law faces the same destiny, discovers in this journey flaws in himself should be still undiscovered, and one of the master scenes in the series was this man talking to his daughter’s husband try to convince him not to go to this trip, try to make sure that the money of the world can not buy himself the person he is going to lose and can not bury the things he discovered about himself deep in the forgotten, finally the man decided to go the old man couldn’t pull him back, the old man even ran after the truck while shouting “ please come back “ “ you cant face this “ & “ keep yourself “ .
Then the story keep going , the adventure keep going for another 30 episode , the series name was " the price of fear " , its was a good one and one of not many that I still remembers , but actually I didnt understand all those emotion inside the man's heart , when I was nine and watching this series I thought that the man was afraid of going out and steps again on a mine, and while I was thinking about the self discovery topic -or any other thing I am going to write about-, I try to attach everything I watch in my daily life with the topic , thinking about the topic , its introduction and what the-photo-above-should-be most of the time, and I was lucky that I randomly remembered that series and while I was thinking about it from the perspective of a "going to write about self discovery " man , I discovered that the series was talking about self discovery while in that age of course I couldn't realize that purpose and meaning .
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- Mohamed Mostafa Malek .